Choices

How we choose affects how we live our lives each day. For the many more hours of this days it'll be invaded by decisions to be made and deadlines to be met. Choices, choices, choices... most of us really dread it.. some of us love it.. i definitely if given a choice wouldn't want the choice. but, life as it is, I must make a choice... Because of Calvary, I'm free to choose and so I choose.

EACH DAY

I CHOOSE GOD! :)
cos' He first chose me...

I CHOOSE LOVE...
No occasions justifies hatred;
No injustice warrants bitterness. I choose love.
Today I will love God and what God loves.

I CHOOSE JOY...
I will invite my God to be the God of my circumstance.
I will refuse the temptation to be cynical...the tool of the lazy thinker.
I will refuse to see people as anything less than human beings,created by God.
I will refuse to see any problem as anything less than an opportunity from God

I CHOOSE PEACE...
I will live forgiven. I will forgive that I may live.

I CHOOSE PATIENCE...
I will overlook the inconveniences of the world.
Instead of cursing the one who takes my place, I'll invite him to do so.
Rather than complain that the wait is long, I'll thank God for the moment to pray.
Instead of clinching my fist at assignments, I'll face them with joy and courage.
When I drive, I will not curse and swear, I'll learn to release grace and patience. (whoever is in the car, you have the right to scold me! I hate it when I become impatient when I drive.)

I CHOOSE KINDNESS...
I will be kind to the poor, for they are alone.
Kind to the rich, for they are afraid.
And kind to the unkind, for such is how God has treated me.

I CHOOSE GOODNESS...
I will go without a dollar before I take a dishonest one.
I will be overlooked before I will boast.
I will confess before I will accuse.

I CHOOSE FAITHFULNESS...
Today I will keep my promises.
I will be Faithful to the Faithful One
My friends will not regret their trust.
My parents will not question my love.
My siblings will know the God that I serve
And my spiritual children will never fear that I will not be around.

I CHOOSE GENTLENESS...
Nothing is won by force, I choose to be gentle.
If I raise my voice, may it only be praise.
If I clench my fist, may it only be prayer.
If I make a demand, may it only be of myself.

I CHOOSE SELF-CONTROL...
I am a spiritual being...
After this body is dead, my spirit will soar.
I refuse to let way will rot, rule the eternal.
I choose self-control.
I will be drunk only by joy.
I will be impassioned on by faith.
I will be influenced only by God.
I will be taught only my Christ.
I will obey the Word of the Lord.
I choose self-control.

Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Goodness, Faithfulness, Gentleness and Self-Control. To these I commit my day. If I succeed, I will give thanks. If I fail, I will seek grace.

TO GOD BE THE GLORY!

This is the TRUTH

This is the Truth

this video speaks volumes. :)

Don't let your past rob you of being compassionate!

Many of us already do. Some of us have the master touch of the Physician himself. We use our hands to pray over the sick and minister to the weak.
But others of us tend to forget. Our hearts are good; it's just that our memories are bad. We forget how significant one touch can be. We fear saying the wrong things or using the wrong tone or acting the wrong way. So rather than to do it incorectly, we do nothing at all.
Aren't we glad Jesus didn't make the same mistake? If our fear of doing the wrong thing prevents us from doing anything, keep in mind the perspective of the people who needs God. They aren't picky. They aren't finicky. They are just lonely. They are yearning for a godly touch. Jesus touched the untouchables of the world. Will we be willing to do the same?

G12 Meeting and randomness....

Last night's G12 Meeting was different. Don't ask me how come.. but somehow, something was different. Anyway, u know what.. i really love leong and ng alot alot alot now! hahaha.. we may have our differences last time and things we cant see eye to eye. but i guess the Lord brought us through something UNKNOWNWINGLY.. now not only are we able to talk about it.. but joke about it! hahaha.. i dunno when the change began or what happened.. but, i know i found myself praying for them even more and caring for them! so ng and leong, if you are reading this.. I LOVE YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART! :)HUGGSS* catch it! omg! of course not forgetting my DEAR BUTT lee YING LEE from the USA! i really miss the times when 4 of us would go out.. be it whether its Haji Lane where me and butt was totally *****.. or the ice skating.. or the PRAWNING with ******... and everything else... i miss it! butt, hurry back! leong, stop studying! ng, hury finish your papers!! hahaha..

simple yet blissful-

leong! all the way for your assisngments and essay!

ng! all the way for the first and the last!

butt! COME BACK SOON LAH!

ohohoh.. back to last night's G12.. it was a very simple yet defining moment for me. After I have been meditating on the word of God for the past 2 days about the Heart of Jesus... God gave me a time to response to Him.. It was a time of divine exchange.. laying down my heart (my rights, my desires, my emotions, my feelings) and exchanging it for the Heart of Jesus... nuturing a Heart that will be like His... The prayer that Amos prayer for me really spoke to my spirit... :) thanks bro!

when people see me, they will be blessed because they see someone who knows the Heart of Jesus... thank You Lord!

Laugh Laugh Laugh!

me and clar had a good laugh at this! hahaha. just for laughs..

CLICK!
the blog that was with me in sec sch!!
only 2 posts but super hilarious

guess, that sums up my sec sch life.. an insecured freak! hahahaha.. right AUDREY!

Loving the people I'm stuck with first begins with a Forgiving Heart....

I learnt an interesting new word today.... STUCKITITIS. sound so cute rite! dont ask me how to pronounce it.. cos it jus sounds wierd when i try pronounce it. LOL! anyway,the meaning of it... stuck: trapped and ititis: six letters you tag onto any word to make it sound impressive.. uhuh! hahaha.. so can i say.. Godititis? hahaha.. okays. i am just crapping..

anyway, Max's Manual of Medical Terms has this to say about the condition:

attacks of stuckititis are limited to people to breathe and typically occur somewhere between birth and death. Stuckititis manifests itself in irritability, short fuses, and a mountain range of molehills. The common symptom of stuckititis victims is the repetition of questions beginning with who, what and why.

The prestigious manual identifies three ways to cope with stuckititis... FLEE, FIGHT or FORGIVE. Some opt to flee (to get out of the relationship and start again else where, but lest they realise that condition surfaces on the other side of the fence as well); some opt to fight and tension becomes a way of life; but a few discover another treatment - FORGIVENESS.

Jesus knew the feeling of being stuck with someone. For 3 years, He ran with the same crew. By and large, he saw the same dozen or so faces. They rode in the same boat, walked the same roads, visited the same houses. But how did Jesus stay devoted to his men? Not only did Jesus have to put up with their visible oddities, He had to endure their inviible folibles. Whats more when Jsus could hear His disciples unspoken thoughts. He knew their private doubts and their future ones as well! But how did Jesus still love them? How did He love his neighbour? Well, I am questioning because sometimes it is really hard to love the people around you when you know that there are happening around.

God brought back me back to this thought... Jesus loved Peter knowing that someday Peter would curse Him. Jesus still loved Thomas knowing that Thomas would one day question about his resurrection. Jesus loved Judas knowing that Judas would betray Him... BUT THE QUESTION STILL LIES... HOW WAS JESUS ABLE TO LOVE???? To me, this answer can be found in John 13. :)

1. Jesus saw Himself equal with His disciples - He was humble.
   With a towel and a basin, Jesus knelt before His disciples and washed their feet. He did not have the atitude that He was of higher authority. In Jesus' days, the waashing of feet was a task reserved not just for servants, but for the lowest of servants. But the one who held the towel and basin is not the King of the universe. Hands that shaped the the stars now wash away filth. Fingers that formed mountians now massages toes. Hours before his own death, Jesus only had one thing in mind. He wants His disciples to know how much He loves them! More than removing dirt, He was removing doubt. In the Bible, there is no verse which reads Jesus washed all the disciples feet except for the feet of Judas - which also means, He loved all UNCONDITIONALLY. Though He knew what will happen in future, HE STILL WASHED THEIR FEET.
   
   
2. Jesus has set the example - We must follow (V 14-15)
   Jesus washed out feet for 2 reasons. The first one was to give us mercy and the second is to give us a message. The message is simply this: Jesus offers unconditional grace; we are to offer unconditional grace too. The mercy of Christ preceded our mistakes, our mercy must also precede the mistakes of others. Those in the circle of Chirst has no doubt of His love, those in our circles should have no doubt of ours.
   
   
3. Jesus forgave - We also must forgive
   Jesus ensured that His disciples had no reason to doubt His love... I must do the same too!
   

To have a heart like his, it means to kneel as Jesus knelt, touching the frimy parts of the people we are stuck with and washing away thsir unkindness with kindness. Relationships don't thrive because the guilty are punished but because the innocent are merciful.

I am someone who sees relationships very important. and trust me, every relationship means ALOT to me... and today I realise that the best way to sustain a relationship is to first forgive and love unconditionally. I am not going to care what I know, what I don't know and what I will know.. I will just LOVE... just as how God has loved me, I will love...

God, soften this hardened heart.. and replace it with a heart that beats like Yours..
I forgive you...

Be MORE and MORE like Him!

God loves you just the way you are, but He refuses to leave you that way. He wants you to be just like Jesus.

The heart of Jesus was pure. The Savior was adored by thousands, yet content to live a simple life. The heart of Jesus was peaceful. The disciples fretted over the need to feed the thousands, but not Jesus. He thanked God for the problem. The discuples shoute for fear in the storm, but not Jesus. He slept through it. The heart of Jesus was forgiving. He refuse to be guided by vengence. He refused to be guided by anything other than his high call. The heart of Jesus was purposeful. Jesus aimed at one goal - to save humanity from sin. His life could be summarized in one sentence: "The Son of man came to seek and save the lost" (Luke 19:10). Jesus was so focused on His task that He knew when to say, "My time has not yet come" (John 2:4) and when to say, "It is finished" (John 19:30).

But... scripture says... ...
"but you were taught to be made new in your hearts, to become a new person. That new person is MADE TO BE LIKE GOD - made to be truly good and holy." (Eph 4:23-24)

Is my heart pure? Am I content to live a simple life? Is my heart peaceful? Do i thank God for problems? Am I forgiving? Is my life according to His purpose? Am I sensitive to the voice of God just like Jesus?

My heart seem so far from His. His is pure; I am greedy. He is peaceful; I am hassled. He is purposeful; I am distracted. He is pleasant; I am cranky. He is spiritual; I am earthbound. The distance between His and my heart seems so immense. Can I ever be like Jesus I questioned at times? Sometimes it is so easy to say... God I want to be more like Jesus.. Make me more like You.. but also at the same time also not knowing how far fetched I can sound. How impossible it is...

However God gave me a revalation today!!! :)
If I am in Christ, I already have the heart of Christ!!! One of the supreme yet unrealized promises of God is this: if you have given your life to Jesus, Jesus has given himself to you. He has made my heart His home! Just like what Paul says in gal2:20... Christ lives in me! However, I need to be teachable to be moulded to become MORE like Him. The same One who saved my soul longs to remake my heart. His plan is nothing short of a total transformation. God is always willing to change me into the likeness of the Savior.. but am I willing to?

God make me more and more like You! I am willing... :)

LIFE IS UNFAIR, BUT GOD IS GOOD

its amazing how you can hide and pretend that nothing is going on when ur heart is in total turmoil and mess.. superficial and in a state of denial.. thats all i can conclude and pray for God to softten your heart and open up when u are unahappy about things. sometimes things are done on purpose in hope that you will grow and lessen ur pride... hope u realise that but i don't think u do. after so many years, if the relationship for you is still like that and you are not willing to speak there is nothing i can do. honestly, if u talk about sowing and reaping, perhaps u should not be so self centered and look at how much u have sowed and reaped, and look at the others who has reaped in your life. perhaps what you have been feeling, you have been making others feel exactly the same way.

if u wish to draw the line till like that, by all means! anyway, i think u are totally closed(although u dont seem so outwardly) to me alr no matter what i do for you because of the feelings in your heart.

LIFE IS UNFAIR, BUT GOD IS GOOD to have surfaced this..! :)

of projects and assignments... :(

been 2 weeks and many more weeks coming of projects, tutorials, assignment and test... but God brought me to this mind blowing statement...

Our life is not our own property but a possession of God. And it is this divine ownership that makes life a sacred thing.

God,
teach me to treat life as a sacred thing and use every minute you give me well... only for your Glory...
Amen.