Day od His Power

I have just returned from the Day of His Power... and I must say that this years Day of His Power is very much different from yesteryears... but bearing in mind that the program is more or less the same. So this proves that, program can remain the same, but the way God choses to visit is always different.... so it is very important to always have an open heart to receive from the Lord... don't let your knowledge restrict the way God will speak to you... :)

Anyway, if there's one take away from today... it would be when Pastor Khong asked, "Do you love Singapore?" and when he challenged us to always be true to our homeland and not be takers of the resources this land can or may provide. There and then, I asked myself... am I here just because I do not have the money to migrate? or am I here just because I hate changes therefore, I will just stay here? or am I here because I do know I have a calling in Singapore? The recent involvment in NDP has really made me have a sense of belonging to the country and I am glad to be part of this Nation.. and that made this years Day of His Power really impactful for me... and to end of, I am glad to say that I know my calling is for the Youths of Singapore. Well, the night ended with supper but also, a hard question to answer from Pastors... but I would say, I will take it up... isnt that what my calling is all about? hahaha.. :)

lost!

i lost my notes! i wonder where it went... sighs... :( cannot just disappear like that right? its in a box file somemore! the only possibility is..... i did not lock my car door and someone opened to take it.. but it sounds ridiculous right! hahaha. i have searched every possible areas... my car, my room, eve's house, the spare room, sis room, parents room... where else can it be! hahaha..

if it is taken from my car, there are only 2 things the person can be after:
1) my notes
2) my pen, pencil, ruler, eraser..

this sounds so unbelieveable... how can it just disappear... beats me!

anyway, i just printed the notes.. so its all from scratch again.. hahahaha.. God bless me!

今天

今天是明天的昨天，是昨天的明天.

clar, the above is for you! haha. and u are at the right blog! heehee!

anyway, today marks the 4th year after I was baptised. 23apr2009! I suddenly feel that 23 is a very meaningful number to me. One with the love-hate relationship. hahaha.. 4 years ago on the 23apr2005, I was batptised. Last year in ward 2311 on the 23nov2008, my Godpa passed away. All spoke of deaths... but one thing i am certainly thankful for is that 4 years ago on this very day, i died and rose again.... and life was never the same again. Baptism is definitely not the emo emo kinda event or one that u can feel a great change.. but it's a time when i chose in my heart that I am dead to self and alive in Christ... and I chose to live in the blessing and promises that God has for me. Askk me physically if anything changed? no... if there was a great surge of emotions... yes but not a lot.. but in my spirit.. something changed and i know my life belonged to the Lord... even as i sit here today, my prayer is that as i recount the past 4 years of my life, i will have many more of such years ahead... with my life totally yielded and trusting in the Lord.. Lord, may I always walk in your will guide me....

pray for me! exam tmr... haha..

take my five loaves and two fishes

Amazing Video with Amazing Voice...



Corrinne May - Five Loaves and Two Fishes Lyrics
"Beautiful Seed" album

A little boy of thirteen
was on his way to school
He heard a crowd of people laughing
and he went to take a look
Thousands were listening
to the stories of one man
He spoke with such wisdom,
even the kids could understand

The hours passed so quickly
the day turned to night
Everyone was hungry
but there was no food in sight
The boy looked in his lunchbox
at the little that he had
He wasn't sure what good it'd do
there were thousands to be fed

But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus
the kindness in His smile
and the boy cried out
with the trust of a child
he said:

"Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
to feed them all"

I often think about that boy
when I'm feeling small
and I worry that the work I do
means nothing at all

But every single tear I cry
is a diamond in His hands
and every door that slams in my face
I will offer up in prayer

So I'll give you every breadth that I have
Oh Lord, you can work miracles
All that you need is my "Amen"

Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
I hope it's not too small

I trust in you
I trust in you

Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
no gift is too small

All for you... :)

leaders?

am having quite an interesting sms chat with chuanz now.. ahaha.. am pondering on the words LEADERS and FAILURES...

failures makes you who u are today.
who you are today is how u repond to your failures at that point of time.
leaders emerge cos they see failures as an opportunity to grow and learn.

Choices

How we choose affects how we live our lives each day. For the many more hours of this days it'll be invaded by decisions to be made and deadlines to be met. Choices, choices, choices... most of us really dread it.. some of us love it.. i definitely if given a choice wouldn't want the choice. but, life as it is, I must make a choice... Because of Calvary, I'm free to choose and so I choose.

EACH DAY

I CHOOSE GOD! :)
cos' He first chose me...

I CHOOSE LOVE...
No occasions justifies hatred;
No injustice warrants bitterness. I choose love.
Today I will love God and what God loves.

I CHOOSE JOY...
I will invite my God to be the God of my circumstance.
I will refuse the temptation to be cynical...the tool of the lazy thinker.
I will refuse to see people as anything less than human beings,created by God.
I will refuse to see any problem as anything less than an opportunity from God

I CHOOSE PEACE...
I will live forgiven. I will forgive that I may live.

I CHOOSE PATIENCE...
I will overlook the inconveniences of the world.
Instead of cursing the one who takes my place, I'll invite him to do so.
Rather than complain that the wait is long, I'll thank God for the moment to pray.
Instead of clinching my fist at assignments, I'll face them with joy and courage.
When I drive, I will not curse and swear, I'll learn to release grace and patience. (whoever is in the car, you have the right to scold me! I hate it when I become impatient when I drive.)

I CHOOSE KINDNESS...
I will be kind to the poor, for they are alone.
Kind to the rich, for they are afraid.
And kind to the unkind, for such is how God has treated me.

I CHOOSE GOODNESS...
I will go without a dollar before I take a dishonest one.
I will be overlooked before I will boast.
I will confess before I will accuse.

I CHOOSE FAITHFULNESS...
Today I will keep my promises.
I will be Faithful to the Faithful One
My friends will not regret their trust.
My parents will not question my love.
My siblings will know the God that I serve
And my spiritual children will never fear that I will not be around.

I CHOOSE GENTLENESS...
Nothing is won by force, I choose to be gentle.
If I raise my voice, may it only be praise.
If I clench my fist, may it only be prayer.
If I make a demand, may it only be of myself.

I CHOOSE SELF-CONTROL...
I am a spiritual being...
After this body is dead, my spirit will soar.
I refuse to let way will rot, rule the eternal.
I choose self-control.
I will be drunk only by joy.
I will be impassioned on by faith.
I will be influenced only by God.
I will be taught only my Christ.
I will obey the Word of the Lord.
I choose self-control.

Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Goodness, Faithfulness, Gentleness and Self-Control. To these I commit my day. If I succeed, I will give thanks. If I fail, I will seek grace.

TO GOD BE THE GLORY!

This is the TRUTH

This is the Truth

this video speaks volumes. :)

Don't let your past rob you of being compassionate!

Many of us already do. Some of us have the master touch of the Physician himself. We use our hands to pray over the sick and minister to the weak.
But others of us tend to forget. Our hearts are good; it's just that our memories are bad. We forget how significant one touch can be. We fear saying the wrong things or using the wrong tone or acting the wrong way. So rather than to do it incorectly, we do nothing at all.
Aren't we glad Jesus didn't make the same mistake? If our fear of doing the wrong thing prevents us from doing anything, keep in mind the perspective of the people who needs God. They aren't picky. They aren't finicky. They are just lonely. They are yearning for a godly touch. Jesus touched the untouchables of the world. Will we be willing to do the same?

G12 Meeting and randomness....

Last night's G12 Meeting was different. Don't ask me how come.. but somehow, something was different. Anyway, u know what.. i really love leong and ng alot alot alot now! hahaha.. we may have our differences last time and things we cant see eye to eye. but i guess the Lord brought us through something UNKNOWNWINGLY.. now not only are we able to talk about it.. but joke about it! hahaha.. i dunno when the change began or what happened.. but, i know i found myself praying for them even more and caring for them! so ng and leong, if you are reading this.. I LOVE YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART! :)HUGGSS* catch it! omg! of course not forgetting my DEAR BUTT lee YING LEE from the USA! i really miss the times when 4 of us would go out.. be it whether its Haji Lane where me and butt was totally *****.. or the ice skating.. or the PRAWNING with ******... and everything else... i miss it! butt, hurry back! leong, stop studying! ng, hury finish your papers!! hahaha..

simple yet blissful-

leong! all the way for your assisngments and essay!

ng! all the way for the first and the last!

butt! COME BACK SOON LAH!

ohohoh.. back to last night's G12.. it was a very simple yet defining moment for me. After I have been meditating on the word of God for the past 2 days about the Heart of Jesus... God gave me a time to response to Him.. It was a time of divine exchange.. laying down my heart (my rights, my desires, my emotions, my feelings) and exchanging it for the Heart of Jesus... nuturing a Heart that will be like His... The prayer that Amos prayer for me really spoke to my spirit... :) thanks bro!

when people see me, they will be blessed because they see someone who knows the Heart of Jesus... thank You Lord!

Laugh Laugh Laugh!

me and clar had a good laugh at this! hahaha. just for laughs..

CLICK!
the blog that was with me in sec sch!!
only 2 posts but super hilarious

guess, that sums up my sec sch life.. an insecured freak! hahahaha.. right AUDREY!

Loving the people I'm stuck with first begins with a Forgiving Heart....

I learnt an interesting new word today.... STUCKITITIS. sound so cute rite! dont ask me how to pronounce it.. cos it jus sounds wierd when i try pronounce it. LOL! anyway,the meaning of it... stuck: trapped and ititis: six letters you tag onto any word to make it sound impressive.. uhuh! hahaha.. so can i say.. Godititis? hahaha.. okays. i am just crapping..

anyway, Max's Manual of Medical Terms has this to say about the condition:

attacks of stuckititis are limited to people to breathe and typically occur somewhere between birth and death. Stuckititis manifests itself in irritability, short fuses, and a mountain range of molehills. The common symptom of stuckititis victims is the repetition of questions beginning with who, what and why.

The prestigious manual identifies three ways to cope with stuckititis... FLEE, FIGHT or FORGIVE. Some opt to flee (to get out of the relationship and start again else where, but lest they realise that condition surfaces on the other side of the fence as well); some opt to fight and tension becomes a way of life; but a few discover another treatment - FORGIVENESS.

Jesus knew the feeling of being stuck with someone. For 3 years, He ran with the same crew. By and large, he saw the same dozen or so faces. They rode in the same boat, walked the same roads, visited the same houses. But how did Jesus stay devoted to his men? Not only did Jesus have to put up with their visible oddities, He had to endure their inviible folibles. Whats more when Jsus could hear His disciples unspoken thoughts. He knew their private doubts and their future ones as well! But how did Jesus still love them? How did He love his neighbour? Well, I am questioning because sometimes it is really hard to love the people around you when you know that there are happening around.

God brought back me back to this thought... Jesus loved Peter knowing that someday Peter would curse Him. Jesus still loved Thomas knowing that Thomas would one day question about his resurrection. Jesus loved Judas knowing that Judas would betray Him... BUT THE QUESTION STILL LIES... HOW WAS JESUS ABLE TO LOVE???? To me, this answer can be found in John 13. :)

1. Jesus saw Himself equal with His disciples - He was humble.
   With a towel and a basin, Jesus knelt before His disciples and washed their feet. He did not have the atitude that He was of higher authority. In Jesus' days, the waashing of feet was a task reserved not just for servants, but for the lowest of servants. But the one who held the towel and basin is not the King of the universe. Hands that shaped the the stars now wash away filth. Fingers that formed mountians now massages toes. Hours before his own death, Jesus only had one thing in mind. He wants His disciples to know how much He loves them! More than removing dirt, He was removing doubt. In the Bible, there is no verse which reads Jesus washed all the disciples feet except for the feet of Judas - which also means, He loved all UNCONDITIONALLY. Though He knew what will happen in future, HE STILL WASHED THEIR FEET.
   
   
2. Jesus has set the example - We must follow (V 14-15)
   Jesus washed out feet for 2 reasons. The first one was to give us mercy and the second is to give us a message. The message is simply this: Jesus offers unconditional grace; we are to offer unconditional grace too. The mercy of Christ preceded our mistakes, our mercy must also precede the mistakes of others. Those in the circle of Chirst has no doubt of His love, those in our circles should have no doubt of ours.
   
   
3. Jesus forgave - We also must forgive
   Jesus ensured that His disciples had no reason to doubt His love... I must do the same too!
   

To have a heart like his, it means to kneel as Jesus knelt, touching the frimy parts of the people we are stuck with and washing away thsir unkindness with kindness. Relationships don't thrive because the guilty are punished but because the innocent are merciful.

I am someone who sees relationships very important. and trust me, every relationship means ALOT to me... and today I realise that the best way to sustain a relationship is to first forgive and love unconditionally. I am not going to care what I know, what I don't know and what I will know.. I will just LOVE... just as how God has loved me, I will love...

God, soften this hardened heart.. and replace it with a heart that beats like Yours..
I forgive you...